Guardian Entry 119: S Is For Stargate...! (Locked to Terra)

[theguardianofair]

Oh, Ashley...! If you're not awake by now, you really should think about waking up~! It's 7:30 in the morning!

Anyways, I know you've gotta be a little bit upset about what happened with BB a few days ago and I can totally relate; he told me about what 'transpired,' too. But he really did have good intentions in mind.

Shouldn't that be reason enough for you to try and mend things with him the same way you did for me~? Or do you wanna give him time to realize his mistake and try to fix them? ♥

Oh, yeah...guess what? I talked with Daniel, and he agreed to meet with both of us! All we need to do is figure out when and where; I suggest someplace private! That way if you passed out, there wouldn't be any need for you to be embarrassed about it later.


(OOC: Frontdated to 7:30 AM as stated in the post.)

Comments

[terra-who.livejournal.com]

I'm up, I'm up...

It's not that I don't want to fix them - after everything we've been through, I know this isn't the worst thing that could happen - but...I don't know, I need another day or so to clear my head. I don't want to talk to him and just...yell at him.

Wow, that fast? Yeah - yeah, that'd be great. I...think I want to save tomorrow for...talking to Beast Bo, but...I'm mostly free.

[guardian-haylin.livejournal.com]

That's good! I'll send Threepio your way with a standard Breakfast In Bed~

Yeah...not always a good thing when you yell at someone when they've already heard their faults over and over again. If you wanted, I could help clear your head. Chocolate is the standard cure for getting over pains like these!

Yep; anything for my BFF! Meaning you're saving tomorrow and most of the day after for talking to BB, but okay. Meeting with Daniel can wait until Thursday...and our planning can wait until tomorrow evening; if you don't mind having me spend the night in the guest room.

[terra-who.livejournal.com]

Naaaw, I just need a little time to myself - everything was so clear when I first talked to him, but now I just don't know what to say. I mean, where do I begin? The random girl staying in his room? The random girl beating up...ugh, Noir? The random girl nearly burning down a section of the Inns?

Yeah - that sounds good. ...Heh, under better circumstances I probably wouldn't even be conscious right now. I'm going to meet Daniel Jackson.

[guardian-haylin.livejournal.com]

Hmm...that is difficult to get through at first glance, but why not start with figuring out what kind of motive our random girl would've had for burning down a section of the Inns?

...Ha, under better circumstances you not being conscious might be a good thing~! I'd see if you could meet Jack, but he might need time to get used to being here for a while.

[terra-who.livejournal.com]

That does seem a lot more logical than any other choices... Focus on her instead of him for the moment. She's...the real problem, right?

Yeah, I- ...Jack. You mean Jack O'Neill? The Jack O'Neill? How did I miss that one?!

[guardian-haylin.livejournal.com]

Thaaat's right! She's left Tetha for the time being but there aren't a lot of places where she'll be able to go.

(And she's just perked up even more-without having had ANY kind of coffee!) Yeah, Ashley-Jack O'Neill! With 2 Ls! It does pay to hang out with Charlie every now and then! I talked with him a few days ago too, and honestly? I'm kinda surprised you never talked with him~

[terra-who.livejournal.com]

We have to find out what she wants and where she's going... I think Asuna already alerted DATS about her, but it'd be best to put out a warning to whatever area she's settling in.

...So am I. Wow. Have I really been that distracted that I didn't notice- This must be rectified.

[guardian-haylin.livejournal.com]

If Asuna already told DATS about her, then it's more than likely their Neon branch was alerted, too...think she might actually head to Neon City? I know people talk about Tetha and everything, but Neon City makes Tetha look like a peaceful city!

Want me to tell Daniel that he should bring Jack along too, when we meet with him~?

[terra-who.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't put it past her. She's probably drawn to destruction.

Er...maybe not quite yet. I don't want to surprise him or anything, considering his son is here. That may take some getting used to.

[guardian-haylin.livejournal.com]

Probably...destruction thrives in that city. Honestly? And, don't tell Irma I told you this...?

Oh, yeah; I noticed his reaction to Charlie, and that was sometime after I had tried to tell Jack that you might show up with a bout of 'excited screaming.' But, if you wanna wait a while for him to get used to being here that's fine with me!

[terra-who.livejournal.com]

...So when I talk to him I'll have to ask about her... She's still mad at him, isn't she?

Yeah - he's gonna have a hard enough time taking that in. I probably shouldn't react like a shrieking fangirl until after he's taken everything in.

[guardian-haylin.livejournal.com]

...It's probably better if you get that right off your chest so there won't be any misunderstandings. Irma's not one for locking her posts all the time, but since she said she was tempted to kick BB out, with or without my approval...I'd say yeah. I'll have to talk with her about that.

That'll probably be in about...2-3 weeks, give or take a weekend. You can act like a shrieking fangirl then~!

[terra-who.livejournal.com]

This whole thing is a big misunderstanding, it seems. I mean...I know I'm mad at him but I don't even know what I'm mad about, and now it's all just so confusing. I would say something but...I don't think my opinion would do much.

[guardian-haylin.livejournal.com]

Hmm...maybe you're mad at him because he does things without thinking of their consequences? It's okay, Ashley...whatever's on your mind will stay between us, unless you want me to let Irma know.

[terra-who.livejournal.com]

Maybe... That might be part of it. I just...I just wish he would've told me something! I mean, how hypocritical is that? No - no, there's not really much I have to say to her, anyway.

[guardian-haylin.livejournal.com]

...I guess that's the major difference between BB and me: he didn't wanna tell you 'cause at the time you had your own problems to deal with; I would've tried to tell you about it but wouldn't want you to do anything that would get you in trouble. Okay...what's on your mind, then?

[terra-who.livejournal.com]

...I don't want to start comparing you two or...or anything like that. I just...I don't know. Maybe I'm mad at him because I didn't ask. You know what I realized? Since I've been back I've asked, "What did I miss?" but never - never - anything specific. I never asked about him. Or how he was doing or if he met any new friends...

...I know - I know - I can't blame myself for things and I've stopped taking everything on me, but...I can't help but feel like...I should've said something before. I couldn't have known, but I could've...something.

And I think Irma still hates me.

[guardian-haylin.livejournal.com]

I was just making a small comparison. You may have realized that you can't blame yourself for things, but you can't always help everyone with their burdens Ashley. Sasami tried to do everything herself and it nearly alienated her from everyone.

Change won't happen overnight, but it takes time. If you want to make a difference with BB, you can start after you've figured out the misunderstandings. No, you couldn't have known...but if you had known and you tried to help out would things have gotten resolved with Gotsumon at the same time, or would it have taken longer?

...What makes you think that Irma hates you?

[terra-who.livejournal.com]

I know. I know, I just...I don't want him to shut me out - because he helped me so much and when he doesn't let me help him I feel like...I don't know where I'm going with this...

And you make a really, really good point - they would have taken longer. I don't know anymore.

Just...a feeling. The way she acts around me - or doesn't act. Something's been so off that...I don't think she likes me.

[guardian-haylin.livejournal.com]

...You feel like a part of him won't accept you or the help that you wanna give him, right? BB would never shut you out...but I think he's worried that you might shut him out. This time, it wouldn't be because of school-related activities...

BB would've wanted you to make sure that Gotsumon was treated well before anything else, if I know him as well as I think I do-and that's part of why you're frustrated, right?

...She's jealous of you. Kinda always has been, and I didn't even realize it myself until the time you were gone.

[terra-who.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's...

...I am such an idiot. He may not have talked to me, but I- I didn't talk to him either, and. I am an idiot.

...But...we worked that out, mostly. She's still...jealous?

[guardian-haylin.livejournal.com]

...You're not an idiot, Ashley! Don't ever call yourself that! Both of you just didn't work things out together, and that's how things kinda imploded.

I think she's got some issues to work out too, but...yeah. She is. I think I know how we can work things out with Irma, too.

[terra-who.livejournal.com]

But I'm at fault for this as much as he is - and I was so cold to him! After everything, how can I do that?

How? I was starting to think we never could.

[guardian-haylin.livejournal.com]

...Aren't you the one who told me that you couldn't be with both me and BB because you're committed to him? Taking that first step forward is always the hardest. I had been willing to try it with you but you rejected me. I don't blame you for that...you do know that, right?

If you're gonna keep what you have with BB solid, you've gotta be willing to take that step.

Chocolate ice cream! Lots and lots of chocolate ice cream~

[terra-who.livejournal.com]

That's not quite... I just can't believe after how far I've come, I still judged him without hearing his side.

[guardian-haylin.livejournal.com]

...You were worried about him, weren't you? Sometimes our emotions run away with us and we act without thinking. I've done that more times here than I can even count!

[terra-who.livejournal.com]

...I was. I was worried and scared and I just stopped thinking.

How am I ever gonna make this work...?

[guardian-haylin.livejournal.com]

...You've just gotta trust him, Ashley...and know that whatever decisions he makes won't always end with something bad happening. Otherwise you'll just keep ending up in this situation all over again - like an endless cycle.

I'd rather have you happy and content in his arms than you doubting yourself over and over again...'cause he sees what I see~.

[terra-who.livejournal.com]

Trust. ...I owe him that, at least. I...thank you. Thank you, this really has helped.

[guardian-haylin.livejournal.com]

...Anytime, Ashley. I'll always help you out with any problems you have. Promise~